Sisters

I'm a Christian and all but when it comes to my sister, I feel more than a little dislike for her. She's the complete opposite of me. She takes anything she wants and I feel like her existence is just an intrusion on my life. It's so much better when we are not living together. When all the things I find near and dear to me are not in her reach. Today she came and I had all these plans to go shopping and see people but I didn't trust her in my room, so I had to make sure things were okay. She finally left and I feel so much better now but because of the snow I don't want to go anywhere now. I feel like staying in but I should go out and get more things I guess... Idk. I'm still a bit nervous, and once I inspect everything, hopefully I don't find anything gone. Times like this I really don't like my life. I get paranoid when things are not known, my things. I have to have some kind of plan or back-up and know where things are going. But having my sister around just makes me so uncomfortable. Wish it was different but she's put this idea in my head that she can't be trusted, can't take care of herself nor does she want to take responsibility for anything. As soon as I get my masters I really need to leave this place, get out the country for a couple of years, work and save up so I can get my own place. And I've heard this a lot from lots of people but maybe somehow someway it will be different for me. Anyway, decided I'm going on a fast, don't know what I'll be praying for just yet so I'll get back to ya on that. K