The End of a Wonderful Semester

Today is my last day of working in Career Services. I got to sit in on a staff meeting but feel really bad about not being able to finish the work I started. Other than that, this time here has been super duper great. I enjoyed the people I worked with and getting to know a little bit more about Career Services. In another life I definitely would think about having my own Career Services office or at least becoming a career counselor but sadly I cannot. Or maybe I can, who knows... Anyway, going to school for teaching so I should probably stick to that but I'm really liking this whole career services thing. Don't know if I'd work here in Hunter but maybe another school. Maybe one closer to home. And since my boyfriend doesn't know where we'll be in say five years... the world is my oyster, lol. Anyway, one more week and I'll be done with my second job and would be officially on vacation. I just hope I don't get wet :D

Authority

I have a really big issue with authority. I don't know what it is, but I just do not like taking orders. Especially when that person isn't doing anything, just asking if you if you're doing the job they said they'd help out with. Gosh, the nerve of some people. And don't let me get started on older family members who think they know everything, yelling at you, telling you what to do and asking you to do things for them, not even taking into consideration all the other things you have on your mind/to do with your time. Sometimes people can just be so inconsiderate. I'm not saying I'm perfect or anything, it's just really sucks when you're on the other end of the stick. I usually try to help others out and take into consideration all the things they have going on in their lives. I ask questions before I assume things, well I try to. I guess no one is perfect and I should just suck it up cause this is just how work is. Oh well, hope this weather doesn't keep me in a sour mood and that soon my own personal sun will come out and shine.

Monday Morning

This morning, I woke up not feeling like myself. I have felt this similar feeling before and don't quite like it. I wish things would change, and be the way I want them to be. But sadly I don't always get what I want. I'm just sad that things aren't working out, that things aren't going as I had planned. But this could be a good thing. Maybe I'm not as knowledgeable about the topic as I think I am. Maybe I'm the one in the wrong. I just don't know. I kinda wish someone would just tell me how life is suppose to go and what I'm suppose to do. It would be really cool if we were born with a set of instructions. I'm just really confused and frustrated and just want to stay in bed for a really long time but I can't. I have school work to do and don't want to disappoint people. So I'll put on my fake smile and act like everything is okay when it really isn't. This is the start of a very stressful couple of weeks.

Spoiled

I think I just might be spoiled. I get what I want, when I want it and how I want it. Well I don't think I ask for too much. I don't go asking for millions or bags of clothes. I ask for ties, but not for people to go out and buy them. I ask fathers and grandfathers who have like boxes filled that they don't use. Sometimes I like to be alone and ask to be left alone by my grandmother but she doesn't understand. She still tells me everything she's thinking, but I'm learning knew ways of addressing that besides yelling at her. It's not her fault, she's old and some old people like to talk. I also asked to spend a nice lunch with my closes friends but that won't be happening. It never seems to. I know they have lives and all but I miss them and want to spend time with all of them. I know I could just see each one individually but it's just not the same. It's just cool to be able to just relax and be in each others company. But sadly the plans that I had set for today won't be happening. I shall have to stay home, do school work and order take out because I have been dying for Chinese food for like forever. And I think I'll do it while watching Pride and Prejudice. Until next time my friends. Be joyful always, pray continually and give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus. Amen.