Monday Morning

This morning, I woke up not feeling like myself. I have felt this similar feeling before and don't quite like it. I wish things would change, and be the way I want them to be. But sadly I don't always get what I want. I'm just sad that things aren't working out, that things aren't going as I had planned. But this could be a good thing. Maybe I'm not as knowledgeable about the topic as I think I am. Maybe I'm the one in the wrong. I just don't know. I kinda wish someone would just tell me how life is suppose to go and what I'm suppose to do. It would be really cool if we were born with a set of instructions. I'm just really confused and frustrated and just want to stay in bed for a really long time but I can't. I have school work to do and don't want to disappoint people. So I'll put on my fake smile and act like everything is okay when it really isn't. This is the start of a very stressful couple of weeks.