My sister

I feel horrible. I feel emotionally distressed and physically distressed. Nothing is happening to me but looking at my sister makes me feel super duper like.. I don't even know. First it's the smell but I think the smell is only the smell because she's sick. She has thalassemia and she's had a plethora of blood transfusions and stuff. And looking at her, first I don't even recognize her. She's so much bigger now, she really just looks bloated. And I'm just use to her being able to whatever damage she wants. But now she can't do much damage. I started this post a couple of days ago but now things have changed. My sister is now back in the hospital, her legs gave out and go that is where she was sent. My grandmother has the flu and so she was in bed all weekend. I had weekend plans but couldn't go anywhere until I knew everyone was okay. I helped my sister which I usually never ever do. I made sure everything she needed was in arms reach and that she had things to do throughout the day. I went to my mother's house to have a square party and came home to find out my sister went back to the hospital. Earlier that day I also spent the morning cleaning the bathrooms and kitchens. Anyway, Sunday I didn't go to church, stayed home, tried to avoid getting sick. But yea, it's just a little weird sorta kind of caring about what happens to my sister. I'm not too worried now that she's in the hospital. They're equipped with the things to make her feel and be better, maybe they don't know it yet, maybe no one does but I'm pretty sure it's not in this house, don't want anything horrible to happen in here. I think I'd have to leave. I hope you all enjoy your day, I'm still trying. K