Unraveling

I'm so close to losing my mind. I was freaking out about my cousin coming over and having to watch two grown adults while grandma is away, but then I gave it to God. I was worried about not seeing my student today, but she showed up and it went well. I was worried about my observation today, but it also went well. I love my students and they all love me. They are the only good thing I have going for me. If all else fails, I know that I am a good teacher and ultimately put my students' needs before my own. While I wanted to cry and leave this house, I was calm, cool and collective. My students even commented on the fact that I'm always smiling and always happy. I think it's nice for them to think that. I also want them to know they can always talk to me. No matter what is going on in my life, I will always try to do my best to help them out. I just hope I remember to bring the brownies next week.

After teaching this after, I came home to a bunch of people in my house. When grandma is away there is no company. I did not know what I was going to do. I prayed and asked for help. I told them they would have to leave. I heard my sister say something, so I repeated myself and said they had five minutes or I'd be calling the police. They all left and I praise God that they did. I don't want to clean up their mess, but I"m afraid I may have to. It's just one of the many responsibilities I have as the oldest and most dependable grandchild. I'm just so blessed to have survived this long. Please remember me in your prayers. One week down, but one still left to go.