Crush

My first crush was in tenth grade. I had a crush on this guy from my after school program. I don't even know why I had it. It was just so stupid now that I think about it. I would obsess over him and want him to like me and think I was cool but I don't remember what it was about him that made me think and do such stupid things back then. If I could change my past I would. I feel like all my worrying and love note writing and giggling was all a waste. Anyway, what I do remember is that I liked his hair. He did have nice hair. We had some common interests. And that's about it. We had one friend in common, and I remember hanging together a lot. I taught them Japanese or what I could teach them. And I remember we did go out once, but ended up switching dates at the end of it with my best friend at the time. Yea, it was very weird. And now he's gay and happily in a committed relationship while I'm still single but not bitter about it at all. I do regret all the time I spent doing all those little childish things but I was a child and part of being a child is making mistakes and learning from them. So in part I am glad I had it but still wish I hadn't done some of the things I did. Oh well, you only live once.